home.

I asked my mom this morning if I should be pursuing something I enjoy doing or something I am good at. What I've enjoyed doing I'm not good at..now what? I swore to myself I wouldn't be in this position last year. Keep pushing? Until how much longer? In need of guidance.

time waster.

1.5hrs left before social psych exam. 40% of my grade. ef..

bentrey.

according to phillipchong this is me.

so..this is a picture of him by me.

resemblance?

pastel reflections

54F in Waltham, raining.

Sitting by the window in my room.

listening to pastel reflections by Kevin Kern.

Hopefully I can write 8 pages today of my research paper?

Hanbit calls to tell me he lost a pair of shoes I bought him.

Why do I even bother sometimes?

yummy finals.

finals week starts.

mmmm.

monday: research paper and psych stats final.

thurs: philosophy final paper (45%!)

friday: social psych exam.

edit pages

fought with brother yesterday.
fought with hc on friday night.
dinner with eug last night.
last night was superbowl. new orleans saints? won.
jerri went back home to fix matt's crazy habits of being irresponsible.
i got perfect score on my psych stats quiz.
schwartz auditorium.
requested $8000, received about $7000. GOD PROVIDES.
talk with reika, christy. insecurities.
freshman jiwon and her "88" ness. bother.
jiyun came over to give me "hello..stickies"
IMed opa. apologized for being a bother. he said, "im going to let you be..with no expectations.."
don't know what that means.
sujin,olga and i sat in the front seats in physics.
suite girls sang spice girls.
ate strawberries with nutella.
made first panini with ham and cheese for lunch before physics.
rescheduled practice with tectonic.

this week...

weekend happenings...
-dpark's bday party
-phipsi drop in
same night.

dance practice 1-5pm at icc. great.

sunday church & pho.
fought with brother in the morning.

mundane Monday.
10-11am-social psych
12-1:30pm-meeting with monique and luke
2pm-physics lab lecture
3pm-jumstart meeting with sujin-SCC 315
5-6:30-psych stats
7-8pm-Religions discussion

tiring tuesday.
9am class-ANTH111a
quick name until class @ 12-1:30 PHIL of Religion...

eat. run.

pref night @9, meaning practice at 8, set up by 7:30PM
Ran/drove around frantically buying champaign, cake, materials, roses...
Wrote the script, pasted everything, set up.

Pref was perfect.
I made Alix proud.
I made the whole sorority proud.

weak and frail wednesday.
10-11am-social psych
11-5pm-library
5-6:30-psych stats QUIZ
7-10pm-physics lab.

trying to get through thursday....

inspiration

[late afternoon]

dec 13th post on sea

December 13th. 4:33pm

Almost exactly 24 hours (and 3 mins) since we set sail from Jacksonville, FL.
So far. . .
There are mostly black people and white people. No Asians, except really old people or families with really young kids.
Mostly middle class, you can tell.
The food does not compare to the food I’ve eaten with Eugene in Boston.
Nowhere near it.
They had wine tasting for $10, but even without it, I feel tipsy onboard so why bother?
I feel like a bulimic. After I eat, about everything I ate, I throw up. Sea-sickness sucks.
I made a conclusion--- being stuck in the sea, being stranded on sea would be my greatest nightmare. I don’t know why I didn’t see it coming, me getting sick and all..OH I KNOW. The rents told me , “oh the ship is really big! You won’t feel the ocean current!”

I’ve learned something about myself. I don’t ask enough questions.
THE OCEAN IS MASSIVE COMPARED TO THE SHIP!
Of course, the ocean will win.
Lesson learned.
Here is the carnival plan.

Saturday: Depart at 4:30pm
Sunday: Day on the sea
Monday: Nassau, Bahamas
Tuesday: Private Island
Wednesday: Day on the sea.
Thursday: back on land.

I’m hungry now.
Everyone is sleeping.
I slept since lunch(which consisted of 2 soft-served ice cream cones and lemonade)

Daily bible study:
Philippians

God’s love is like an ocean, and we are sinking.
As massive as this boat is…the ocean is so much greater.
As big of a person/as successful as we make ourselves to become, the world is so much greater.
As big as this world may seem to be, our God is SOO much greater.
He created us and He created this world. Our God reigns.
We can’t lose sight of how insignificant we are to God, we’re even small as a speck in this world. Birds are even less significant than we are-yet, our heavenly father feeds them. So why worry about tomorrow and what tomorrow will bring, when we know our God is ultimately in control? And that our God is a loving God who loves us, a speck in the universe. He loves us tremendously, he calls us His sons and daughters, the insignificant us. He shows grace to us, showing our significance to Him. How merciful is our God? So great.